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Quotes & Sayings
Friday, April 19, 2024
RE Slater - Personal Update
Tuesday, September 19, 2023
Personal Update: A Life Reconstructed, Part II
May-August 2023 |
Warning: Below is part of my health journey this summer. Some pictures will be ugly to look at while other pics show a bit of progress before collapse and failure. To that end my doctors have removed my internal prosthetic which I've had since 2016 (8 years ago).
At present, there is no structure in the empty space except medical cement in my foot. Thus the boot I'm wearing with restricted walking. Sometime later this November or December there will a second surgery (fourth this summer) should the infection(s) be gone.
The last images show a customized 3D printed durable titanium cage which will be implanted in the foot and ankle area. I have no idea what the structure will look like as opposed to the picture shown.
Then we wait again for any new infections to show up. If not, a third - and hopefully final - surgery will fuse the foot to the ankle.
Again, some pictures below will not be pretty to view however, in 2016 I had two very long (14-20") open wounds x 4" wide running along both sides of my calf (top and outer areas) with picc lines directly into the heart and a overworked eou d pump sucking out crap. That experience was a lot worse. I nearly didn't make it mentally or emotionally by the third month after reviving from a fully septic crisis.
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May-August 2023 with wound pump |
May-August 2023 w/ wound pump; eventually there were 3 open wounds with a fourth would opening up. Thus the removal of the internal foot-and-ankle prosthetic. |
May-August 2023 with wound pump |
Third surgery: September 2023 w/ removal of device |
Next Surgery is the installation of a structural support device. (To implant a new internal motility device risks a 35% rejection rate. Thus the cage.) |
A third surgery fuses the foot to the ankle sans any infections... |
Xrays of a foot fusion to the ankle |
Tuesday, September 5, 2023
Personal Update - A Life Reconstructed, Part I
Alan Sorrell: A Life Reconstructed |
(a poem for the grieving)
by Jeanette LeBlanc
You are here.
You are here.
Even though everything smells like love and loss and burning.
Start with this.
You are here and it hurts.
It hurts because of all you’ve lost.
Your heart is a 3am siren, driving through that sucker punch bruise of a night sky.
Never a sign of anything good.
Here, nothing feels good.
Now you’ve begun.
You are here and it hurts and the world feels impossibly heavy.
There is not enough air in the room.
The quilt on your bed is eight hundred pounds of weight keeping you from movement.
There is no going back
There is never any going back.
Now you’re getting somewhere.
You are here and it hurts and the world feels impossibly heavy and you are shouting bargains at the moon.
He is listening but does nothing.
There is nothing he can do.
You are on your knees in the grass,
clutching handfuls of earth.
This is progress.
You are here and it hurts and the world feels impossibly heavy and you are shouting bargains at the moon and there is nobody else to hear you
It is the darkest night you’ve ever lived through
You’ve lived through.
You’ve lived.
Do you hear me?
You live.
You make it.
You survive.
There is a faint tinge of light on the horizon and you made it.
Now we’re finally moving forward
You are here and it hurts and the world feels impossibly heavy and you are shouting bargains at the moon and there is nobody else to hear you and there is a grief wail building inside of you.
Through the earth, through your toes,
Your legs, your belly, your chest and lungs,
The reach of your arms, your curled fists.
Your neck
Your jaw
Your face
The top of your head.
Have you ever seen a building implode?
Yes. This is you.
Now you know you have begun the work of healing.
You are here and it hurts and the world feels impossibly heavy and you are shouting bargains at the moon and there is nobody else to hear you and there is a grief wail building inside of you and you crumbling.
The ground shakes as her own broken pieces slide rough against each other.
There is a red earth landslide and everything is tumbling into the sea.
On the ocean, a wall of water rushes toward land.
Disaster cannot be prevented, only survived or not.
The earth knows well the pain of things that cannot be fixed.
Your pain cannot be fixed.
There is no shortcut through this.
This knowledge is the key to everything that will come next.
There is more to come.
Sometimes healing looks like falling apart.
Sometimes falling apart is the path to what can be built.
Sometimes, we go through the darkest nights and there is nobody but the moon to hear.
He always listens.
Now you listen.
There is not enough air in the room but you are breathing.
There is nobody here but you are held.
You have broken and the world is breaking and we will always rebuild.
Do you hear me, love?
We will always rebuild.
- Jeanette LeBlanc
Saturday, April 1, 2023
Update re "Origins of Evolution and Religion"
A Personal Update
Wednesday, August 12, 2020
R.E. Slater - A Long Journey Ended
Last night I was reading past articles on quantum physics I had written nine years ago and sharing several insights with my wife on how quantum physics tied into process philosophy which all then connected neatly with "open and relational (process) theology" as a three legged triangle. But after posting an article on eco-cosmopolitics that same day, I just then realized I had to add a fourth leg to the triangle and expand it dimensionally when adding the cosmopolitical element of a pluri-universe dispensed in multi-natural, multi-perspectival, and multi-human terms of thrival. Throughout this rhombian structure you then get an open future with infinite possibilities allowing for agency, creativity, imagination, value, and joy. - re slater
A sculpted mobius strip |
(res) The Quantum Universe We Live In
(res) The Laniakea Supercluster: Our Home in the Heavenly Skies
(bg) What Inflationary Theory Can Tell Us
(res) Discussions in Science and Religion - Week 2: A Tale of Two Cities
Thinking about God Makes Me Just Want to Keep My Mouth Shut
Building a Eco-World of Solidarity with God, Others, and Nature |
Thursday, August 3, 2017
Relevancy22 - Disclaimer, Purpose, Intention, and Goal
Relevancy22 does not purport to be a conservative "safe" site but one asking relevant questions to today's postmodern global cultures especially in light of who God is, what the bible is, and how the church thinks through these issues. The author, me, came to Jesus many, many years ago as a child and grew up in a fundamental church, and later, attended conservative-evangelical churches, all of which I have dearly loved. About a decade ago (2009) the Lord brought all my education, seminary training, and past ministries into re-calibration as I watched the church provide less and less relevant answers to its congregants and society. As such, I respect the past for the beauty it held but must now differ from its conclusions which I've been re-adjusting and updating over the years towards a more contemporary voice. I try to be gracious in my writing or reporting but at times do become passionate about a subject or topic as you will discover.
Relevancy22 was Holy-Spirit-borne for Christians seeking legitimate answers (or helpful directions) to their faith. In a way, I believe Relevancy22 to be recapturing the Orthodox Christian faith from the constructed one being voiced about by today's conservative churches which draw too heavily on their doctrinal commitments and not enough on an open (rather than closed) bible unfettered by traditional teachings. If the articles found within sound different, radical, or not quite conservative, they are. They've been written - or edited from other author's bodies of work - to cause us to think about difficult biblical subjects which have been overly simplified resulting in more fictional narratives of the church's faith than what they really are. In my mind, making the Christian faith "safe" from academic, scientific, and cultural examination is the beginning of all the evils of popular religions refusing to submit to, or enact, God's grace and mercy, peace and forgiveness, into the lives of both the lost and saved. Thus this online dialogue here. We need another gospel which embraces the fullness of God and His salvation through Christ our Savior.