For very few of my readers what I will say he will be profound. For many, many others, it will be deemed gibberish, ungodly, unbiblical, liberal, or of the devil. But what is not realized is how our worlds are continually deconstructing and trying to glom things together to help us make sense of our internal fractures.
I love the idea of skepticism, especially in the religious sense. Pete Rollins calls it a "religious or Christian atheism" willfully committed into our internalized faith-beliefs which might help religionists, or Christians, make sense of their professed charters of faith when neither the temple or church can anymore.
If we haven't allowed ourselves to question who we are, and what is motivating us towards a structuralized form of faith, we will not be able to survive the many destructions which arise testing, or breaking, our faith allegiance. If allowed arightly, these life events will helpfully expand our definition of God and our faith.
Breakage is a good thing when it comes, however deeply painful and unwanted, such events may be. Personal loss is hell many times over - we ache for those who have great unwanted loss in their lives.
And the spiritual loss of faith is a deep, deep darkness. For myself, and many others who have survived these times, we may term these personal epochs as "the death of God" unwanted, barren in all its ways, and truly lost to all plans or purposes.
Our personal faith will always be tested and even, perhaps, suffer a heart-numbing death. One which will need healing and recomposition back to a rightful, truly death-defying reimaging of our lives and faith. A healing which might propel us forward physically or spiritually towards healthier, uplifting ways of living with the burdens suffered. The other choice is spiritual death. Death of soul, of spirit, of a world of relationships waiting to be encountered.
For some, this is how Christ comes to reimage us through his atoning work from death unto life. That in loss to our former faith, circumstances, or loving relationships, we might be revitalized in our losses and personal spirit-annihilation to then rise from the grave of pain and suffering to find God's love and beauty beyond the religious ascriptions of man.
Ruptured faiths are times of deep re-birth. Ruptures will never end in this life, but some are much greater than others. We are tested again-and-again to respond to dying-to-self-to-lean-into Christ's newness of life.
This is what is meant in the existentialized view of a "Christianized experience of atheism, or loss of faith." But its post-structural resurrection back into the inured world can be one of sublimely divine experience. Its an awakening, or Spirit-enlightenment, which can only be experienced.
In Christian lingo its a renewal or rebirth. But whatever, or however it is, it disturbs, is restless, and seeks to live without the plasticity of artificial forms and functions.
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